Live. Laugh. Love.

you are so annoying!!!

i feel like ever since this one person has pretty much evrything goin for them and doesnt need my help/has no problems(nothing extreme=what i mean about problems)….im bottom on the list. i actually feel this way about alot of the ppl i know. i dont know why but i shouldnt have to deal with it. and im not. so all i have to say is eff off.

i had such a great weekend. i got meet so many new people. they are like my close friends now. we bonded in just 3 days! i really needed the retreat and i am so happy that i am so fortunate to do this. i feel like i have known them forever! i love life. i love college. 

really excited for the retreat i will be on in two days! i am so happy and blessed that i can be apart of a team at scranton. i really enjoy that i can help newbies and become really close to ppl who share the same values that i have. im happy for the opportunities that i have. im so glad that i can get away from everything and have fun this weekend. i will not be on facebook/tumblr til sunday. goodbye and goodnight. see you in a couple days. 

i dont get it. are you proud of urself??? no one wished you a happy birthday. its sad but you still dont get it. how much longer is it going to take….just do me a favor and dont drag the rest of us who are doing well down with you. 

i dont really know why i thought about doing this…but i want to test my relationships with others. i feel like im wasting my time. the other day i deleted so many numbers from my phone and deleted so many people from my facebook. it felt great because i dont talk to them, they dont talk to me, and i could care less what is going on in their lives if their not in mine. it felt freeing. i cleaned my room and got ride of the excess and unnecessary things that i have. it was just really empowering. and then i got to thinking…how many of the people I(AND i put i in caps because it feels like i do it more) keep in contact with actually want to talk to me. i wonder how many people could care less if i even exist. SOOO….im going to go two weeks without initiating anything…and i mean anything at all. i am not going to be the first to say hello. and i am not going to be the first to start a conversation. its going to be good for me to see who actually cares when i speak and who doesnt. and i can already tell now that im going to have zero messages and no friends. cant wait.